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Thursday, March 10, 2005

Thu, 10 Mar 2005 04:29:01 GMT

NOTE:

supernatural disturbances vary from manifestation to manifestation.

a phoenix will burn itself out and arise countless times throughout the millenia, yet the soul always remains intact.

now listening to: My own Heartbeat. =beautiful=

kev.

ps cancel your subscriptions the shows over.

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

Wed, 09 Mar 2005 21:27:02 GMT

yeh so i live. barely. things are moving along as they should. there is only one thing in the world that you can count on and this is the passage of time, which heals =most= wounds. some, however, just fester over time. be mindful of which is which, things are not always what they seem.

Monday, March 07, 2005

Mon, 07 Mar 2005 03:35:51 GMT

im not usually this cocky but youre gonna fucking miss me when im gone

Monday, March 07, 2005

Mon, 07 Mar 2005 02:48:32 GMT

update:

im an ASSHOLE so i guess ill just SHUT THE FUCK UP

Friday, March 04, 2005

Fri, 04 Mar 2005 17:59:20 GMT

ok nothing new to report. it felt kinda weird goin to sleep last night and not havin mike there. dramadramadramadramadramadramadrama. dude, man. everyone's got it. everyone gives it. dont say that you dont. sometimes intelligent people like to do stupid things. why? i dunno. go find someone intelligent and ask them.

Tuesday, March 01, 2005

Tue, 01 Mar 2005 17:53:37 GMT

i have awoken recently. just finished conducting the morning rituals and am about to get in the shower. work in 2 hours and no way there except for my own two feet, as of right now.doesnt seem to be problem though, to th best of my knowledge my brother returned my headphones so ill be fine. i wish my brain was bigger so itd be a little easier for me to process everything thats goin on

now listening to: Swing For The Fences = no one's perfect

it definitely fits the mood for today

Sunday, February 27, 2005

Sun, 27 Feb 2005 02:47:07 GMT

shit i tried to post some html and it didnt work im sorry so this is just a random pointless post.

Friday, February 25, 2005

Fri, 25 Feb 2005 04:52:04 GMT

im sure everyone is tired of coming to friends xangas and reading about how stupid and emo we feel inside. it gets so redundant. "im a loser, i suck, i always fail, i cant make you smile" blah blah blah blah blah. we all suck. we are all losers. and we dont make anyone happy. not even ourselves most of the time. were so disappointed with the things weve done, or what people have done to us. or things that have gone wrong, we barely get to see life for what it is. its actually an amazing and precious gifts, and if we as humans were at our full poetntial, we might be able to see this and use it to our advantge, but no, we are so busy about whats gone wrong in our lives and how disappointed we get by others and ourselves, we really dont even take the time to smell the flowers that produce oxygen and fuel our bodies with life. or to sit and gaze at the stars, whose gravity keeps us in orbit so we dont hurl towards the sun and all die, sure, most of us indulge in the gifts of nature you know what i mean, but do we really think about what it is> or does for us? or to us? i mean really sit and think about it. roll yourself up a joint and put your headphones on and get naked and lie on your back in the snow and look at the stars for a good half hour, or 20 minutes. hell, make it 5 i dare you. do it and tell me youre not a changed person. you know what, skip the joint, its not a necessity. just lie down and gaze at the beings that have seen a lot more than we ever could. imagine all the things theyve seen, what they have taught us, what theyre still trying to show us. its all in there. one day well all be gone. the world will explode or get struck by a comet or well blow ourselves up with our own nuclear technology which i feel is a more likely event.and we will become one, well be heavenly bodies hanging across the back-lit canopy ourselves. maybe well be looking down on them someday.

Friday, February 25, 2005

Fri, 25 Feb 2005 02:29:16 GMT

you know what guys, i think the only thing in life i love more than being a derelict bum is starting fights with my best friends for no apparent reason. yeh, really hits the spot.

Tuesday, February 22, 2005

Tue, 22 Feb 2005 18:20:24 GMT

lets see if i can go an entire day without offending anyone.

well, im back in my house. i mean my home. i mean 3890 sandra drive, yeh, the place where my family currently resides. my dad will probably not be home in time to gimme a ride to work so i hafta walk. i hope its not too cold out because i let Amanda borrow my earmuffs(headphones). i should be alright. id like to say it feels good to be back here and that some weights were lifted off my shoulders but alas this is not the case.ive already gotten into 2 arguments since i woke up. ihave no cigarettes and the problems ive had at Amanda's still followed me back here. i knew they wouldnt go away but i had kinda hoped they would get a lil easier to deal with but nope. im at a loss. the only thig i can do is sit back and wait for things to get better. i know im doing my part, i just hafta start saving some money. im lookin forward for my brother to get home so i can start playing Zelda again. its nice. very. and im currently playing "nothing" because derrick has all of my cds